We long for the whispers in the stillness and quiet. We desire to be in the face of the rocks when the storms rage and hear Him pass by. We want the shouts of answers or the wrestling matches with Him where but a touch leaves us forever changed physically.
But we don’t leave room for Him…
I say this looking at myself as well. In the every day, I don’t leave much space for the working of the Spirit to breathe into me. In the busy season we always find ourselves in, we don’t leave much space for Christ’s love to be poured out onto us. We just don’t have the capacity for God, if He could but just see our schedules.
We face the same situation all over again, as if we are the innkeepers when Mary and Joseph approach us asking for space in our lives, to house the One-our Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God. We think it has to be tidy first to allow Him in, that we have to get a few worship services and a small group added to our plate before we could possibly be available to Him.
Then they become the routine, but are they giving us room for Him? for even more of Him? Or are we checking those off of our list for the week, leaving unchanged and even more harried at our growing list of things to do and places to be?
Even in the quiet, do we find the space for Him? I know I can find a million things to do at home in order for it to be the right time and place for Him to be present. We point to the external circumstances or distractions when in fact it’s to appease the rising guilt and shame from within as we know it’s in our control and it’s within our realm of free choice, yet we choose the other.
I think on this ever more at this time of year and wonder after the fact how the innkeeper and his wife felt. If they even knew the opportunity lost to be present and in the presence of Christ? When I dwell on the wonder of that moment and His encapsulating presence, I recall times when I have made myself available and chosen to be present with Him. Those were beautiful times that only He and I share, that only He can put words to as I am still left in awe of His power and wonder.
There will always be things, people to take places, to-do lists to be completed, distractions to take our focus away but in the present we have the choice of being fully engaged in Him. He’s chosen us for just such a time, so why won’t we choose Him above the rest?
Glory in his holy name;
let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice!
Seek the Lord and his strength;
seek his presence continually!