I sat here looking at this blinking screen for far too long, for far too many days. I have been at a loss lately as to what to write. Actually that’s not true. I have plenty to write but just can’t seem to get it out the way I want it to sound.
I went for a jog tonight, on what finally feels like early Fall here in Nashville, down Belmont Boulevard as I had a break between the official work day and an event one of the groups I advise is sponsoring. Usually a run helps loosen up the logjam of thoughts and get the creativity flowing.
No go. It was all jumbled and truly just a mess in my head.
Here’s the reason…
I am wrestling with the frustration of life, and where I find myself these days. God’s caused a spark in me lately that I cannot ignore. One that is causing friction. It’s causing heat. It’s causing growth. It’s causing uncomfortable in my life. I don’t like it one bit either.
I don’t think Joshua did either though. He got called out after Moses died. I have a distinct feeling he didn’t like that notion of leading. God calls us, not when we are at our most prepared though. If He did, then why would we ever need to depend fully on Him in it? Why would we cling to the Word, to the strength found in Him?
It’s a realization that in the refining He is our provision, protection and ever-present. I forget when the heat gets turnt that I am not alone. He joins me in the fire, reminding me that I will come out of it as long as I stay with Him. So in this time of sparking growth I keep coming back to Joshua, as God called him to lead and the people coming behind him in support…their echoes, the very words of the Lord God Almighty, ringing clear in the valley…
Haven’t I commanded you: be strong and courageous? Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.