I drive past the same area on my way to work each day with little focus on what’s around me. I am usually listening to the radio or running through my morning in my head. Sometimes I am on the phone with my family as it’s a good time to chat with them with the commute.
Two weeks ago I happened to notice they had torn down a building along the route. The bulldozer was there taking heaps of rubble out of the now vacant lot. As traffic crawled by the spot I saw a man pouring over plans spread out on the back of a pickup truck.
For me it resembles how I think God’s been at work in my life this last year. I didn’t expect to see a bulldozer roll up about this time last year and completely demolish me. But it did. You know what? I am better for it.
I am a better person. A better believer. A better woman.
Why? Because He had the plans spread out all along. He waited to get me down to the foundation. The foundation I had decidedly tried to build on myself. He sat and waited. His plans long since been laid. He waited for me to get to a point where I would allow the demolition. The sight of the bulldozer carting off things I clung to, memories and beliefs I had scraped together, was gut-wrenching. Seeing life laid bare, picking through rubble to find some semblance of a foundation. Realizing I had built on my own plans, constructing what I thought was best for me…what I had mistakenly thought was what He deemed for me as mine.
But it wasn’t…
All the while He is standing at the back of the pickup, with His plans rolled out. Pouring over the grand plan He has, and where the building will first start to be constructed once more…under His guidance. There’s a part of me that wants to rush over and peek at the plans, as if I have some right to them. Then I remember, as I look at the last of the rubble carted out that in fact I have no rights to ask of anything…to think I deserve to know what comes next in His plan. I simply must be willing to have the faith that what’s next is best.
Now there’s a corner going up on the vacated lot. It’s been cleared and construction is well underway, showing signs of a framework, with precise and firm layers going in, building on a foundation that was laid by His hand. A foundation that won’t be covered up or built shoddily upon.
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen.
Jeremiah 29:11-12 (NLT)