By nature, I am a planner. It comes in handy for my job obviously. It comes in valuable when I am in a dating relationship or when friends are wanting to do something. I make it a point to know three things to do on a given week and what needs to happen in order for plans to be made.
Recently I was dating a guy who was very similar in the planning mode. He would know what was going on across the city at any given point. However he wouldn’t want to secure anything until the day of. It was a bit nerve-wracking as I want to have the next day planned out.
(Yes I am a Type A, ESTJ, Activator to the max)
It’s funny though because what I see as such a strength is in fact a huge weakness. Planning ahead doesn’t allow room for trusting others. It gives me the control and the responsibility. It plants me safely in the driver’s seat, where I have come to truly like it. Not knowing what’s around the corner, well, that is a big anxiety point…or it has been.
Lately though I have been asked by others and especially by God to trust in the plans ahead. To put my need for control or planning on the table, and not pick it back up. While my inner self warred with that, I found it freeing. All that worry about what could go wrong? It simply was unfounded.
Yes, things do go wrong in life, but when I relinquish the need to plan ahead for it, it allows me to enjoy life just a bit more. To look around at what God orchestrates and know He is the master planner. He knows far more about what’s ahead than I could ever plan for, and now I am slowly but surely beginning to be okay with that. I am even beginning to enjoy it. It leaves room for fun, for whimsy and for goodness.
Most of all it leaves room for a future written by the One Whom Knows All. It pours in hope that only could come from Him. Because God is not the Author of Confusion, and He most certainly doesn’t need a Plan B.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)