I have a love of planners. It’s probably borderline obsessive. I tote it everywhere I go, even if I won’t be in need of it. I like jotting notes, verses, thoughts. I also like planning out my life, in day-segments. There’s a part of me that revels in having my days mapped out for me.
Recently I was doodling in my planner, as I have developed this habit of late, and the words Unsettle Me came out. I kind of played it off, but as the days stacked upon one another I began to see that it had turned into a prayer, and a theme for my life now.
For being such a planning, in the details person, being unsettled would be the last thing I should be praying. Yet, here I am, praying it daily in moments, in silence, in shouts and sometimes in tears. There is a part of me wanting, desiring to know where this is leading, this unsettledness. That’s when He guides me to this verse, over and over again. A verse that guided me to where I am now, standing in hope and assurance.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 (New Living Translation)
It is fascinating to me that even in this prayerful time of my unsettling, God is in it. He knows the plan, THIS was His plan. While there have been (and I am sure there will be more) moments of frustrations and questions, doubts and tears, I have this one thing that remains a constant for me…God. His plan and His faithfulness. Hope that is found in Him alone, and that is the best laid plan.