I remember the days. Not long ago at all. Where I wondered if I would meet someone, if I would end up alone. If I would finally find that happiness that a boyfriend (or husband) would bring. I also remember the heartache and pain, the tears behind the questioning of God in it. Of doubting and fear-ridden pleas.
It’s amazing what lies we believe, but also what fears we allow to overwhelm us. While I know they evolve as we grow and journey through life, I think many of them we face in those single moments. When we are solo in life and wondering when, where, and why.
I love Tom Petty, and I think his song The Waiting may be one of my all-time favorites because of the truth it speaks so very loudly to a single heart. It is so hard to wait. And we focus on this end line, this finish. This particular thing we’ve conjured up in our minds as the be-all-end-all for ourselves. I wonder if that soon becomes an idol for us in our lives. That person that we have manufactured for ourselves in our heads.
While we should cast aside that list, or look at it’s true realistic nature, I have to say we also must focus on what it is we are setting as the priority in our life. If a constant focus on that end game of someone for ourselves, I think it’s time to do a heart check, and a mind check. I think if we are consumed in the waiting by that finish line, we set ourselves up for disappointment at every turn in the bend. We allow our minds and hearts to overtaken by something far less important.
What if in the waiting God was asking you to draw closer to Him instead of your finish line? What if in the waiting He wanted you to be fully engulfed in His plan that you forgot what you were striving so hard for? What if all the waiting was actually your journey? What if that is exactly what God had planned for you because you are that strong?