Am I the only one who finds myself in the middle of ridiculous tension and cannot for the life of me figure out how I ended up there? I saw it coming and just like a canoe in a river, let myself just ride on into it. I’ve been patient, listening, seeing both views at different times, sometimes even agreeing with what one party says, then being convinced by the other side.
Late last night was my breaking point. It’s exhausting me, affecting me, and I don’t have the energy to devote to triviality such as this. I don’t want to be one to question God, that may be He allowed this trial to suck me in, to see how my faith and reliance on Him is affected. However, in the conversation I had this afternoon about the situation, I realized that God wouldn’t have His hand in this mess. He’s not pleased by it, it’s not bringing Him glory, and it’s not raising one another up. My quiet time this morning involved part of Galatians 6. I honed in on verses one through five. “Brethren, if a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness, considering yourself lest you also be tempted. Bear one another’s burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ. For if anyone thinks himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. But let each one examine his own work, and then he will have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another. For each one shall bear his own load.” This is how I know the situation is not of God, with His words. Whatever strife and tensions are going on, are not mine to involve myself in, nor are they mine to condemn another of. Who do I think I am? What gives me the right to do that? Exactly. Leave it at God’s feet for Him to do His will in. God will take care of it, it’s not ours to do. If I believe and trust that the God I love and serve is the same God who brought Israel out of Egypt, then why can’t I trust that whatever His will is in this, He will accomplish it?
Thank you God for that realization and speaking to me about this after only a few short prayers. I know that this issue isn’t resolved in the least, but I know that His hands are on it for His work to be done, not mine.